Nice title to my post - huh.... Well, I guess this is my motto for right now. I have not been posting lately. To be honest with you, I have just been mad at life. Things have definitely not turned out the way I had hoped or dreamed. I have had the biggest pity party this side of the Mississippi. Sorry I did not invite anyone, but trust me - you would not have wanted to have been there. It was ugly!!!
Our lives changed overnight. What started out as just a little dime size spot on my husbands arm turned into a life altering illness. For those of you who are just now reading about all of this - let me catch you up. In March, my husband went to our local doctor for a physical. While there the doctor took a biopsy of a small mole on his arm. Within a week, he had the diagnosis of Melanoma. At the time, they thought it was just Stage 1. After a few surgeries, they determined it was Stage III. This meant the doctors needed to do a much more advanced form of treatment. He is now undergoing Chemotherapy. For the first month, he will go 5 days a week. After that, he will give himself chemo injections for the next 11 months. Yep - you read that right - 11 months. The doctors believe this is the best treatment for his type of cancer.
So, what have I learned through all of this? I spent the first month or so trying to determine that God was trying to teach me. Of course, it must be ALL ABOUT ME. But then our pastor - Brother Ron gave a message from Habakkuk. Not a book I have read very often - but some very powerful stuff. I realized much like Habakkuk, I thought God needed reminded of all the bad stuff going on around here. I wanted Him to show me what this all meant to me. And finally He showed me - sometimes things just happen. It doesn't always have to mean anything. What I have learned is that I am stronger than I ever imagined. Pity party and all, I am a very strong woman. It also helped me to realize how crazy in love I am with my husband. Maybe I had started to take him and our relationship for granted after 18 years. I have laughed more lately than ever before. I laugh at the silliest things. Things that before I migh have overlooked before.
So, for now - I will put on my big girl panties and get over it. I may have moments that I try to return to my pity party, but I promise I will move forward. Keep us in your prayers. We still have a long road ahead.