Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Taking a deep breath...

I feel like I have been holding my breath a lot lately. Waiting for the latest reports from Terry's doctors. Ya know, it all just seems like a bad dream sometimes. This was suppose to be one of the most joyous times of our lives. We have just brought our precious little girl home from China. The kids are all doing great. Life was pretty good. But then, waiting around the corner when we least expected it was a lot of heartache. I was blindsided to say the least.

The doctors completed Terry's second surgery yesterday. This one was much more involved. They removed all of the lymph nodes under his arm. Since the cancer was found in the lymph nodes in the biopsy, the doctor felt this was the best idea. They have also decided to start chemo (Inferion treatments). This was a big shock to both of us. It made everything seem much more real.

It all started with just a small spot on his arm. You know the kind - it looks a little different, but you just keep putting off going to the doctor. I keep wondering the "what if??" "What if he had went 1 year ago, or even 6 months ago?" But I can't live in the what could have been and focus on moving forward.

Sorry for all the rambling, I think I just needed to get some of this out.

Thanks again for your prayers.

Till later...


TanyaLea said...

I'm sorry for all the heaviness and heartache you are going through... those 'what-ifs' are hard, so don't put yourself through that. You've been in my thoughts a LOT lately and you will remain in my prayers. I'm so sorry for your pain, Diane...and especially for Terry. Hang in there and continue to lean on the Lord for strength.

Big Hugs,

Gretchen said...

Sweet friend, I am praying for you. Know that this timing does not surprise God and He already knows the future. Lean into His love and grace.